( her brows furrow as noctis is picked up from her arms, set aside on the floor and opens her mouth to ask but is truly silenced when she is pulled forward into an embrace. she breathes out a shakily breath of air before she shifts, moves to return the hug and bury her face against his shoulder. she has to steady herself and remember how to breathe before she simply broke down in his arms... )
I was so desperate to not find myself alone again that I became a coward. I couldn't stand the thought of it... of not having anyone at my side that I stood to the side and allowed such horrible things to occur. I could have done something, said anything but—
( she pulls back slightly, shaking her head. ) But I ignored that pain, I made myself blind to it. As I was blind to Herian's suffering that became so great she would request to be made tranquil.
( it's too much, her head is spinning but she laughs. breathless and tired as her gaze drops to the floor. everything else is falling down around her, so why not this too? )
... I was not talking about Carys then. When I spoke of my feelings to that demon it was of my feelings for you.
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Date: 2018-05-18 07:58 pm (UTC)I was so desperate to not find myself alone again that I became a coward. I couldn't stand the thought of it... of not having anyone at my side that I stood to the side and allowed such horrible things to occur. I could have done something, said anything but—
( she pulls back slightly, shaking her head. ) But I ignored that pain, I made myself blind to it. As I was blind to Herian's suffering that became so great she would request to be made tranquil.
( it's too much, her head is spinning but she laughs. breathless and tired as her gaze drops to the floor. everything else is falling down around her, so why not this too? )
... I was not talking about Carys then. When I spoke of my feelings to that demon it was of my feelings for you.