( her own self-consciousness is beginning to rear its ugly features. although he ducks his head down, she has to stop herself from covering her face and squeezes her eyes shut, breathing shakily. somewhere, somehow that sickening scent of fire and ash and brimstone is lingering in the back of her mind and she prays that she does not hear carys' voice again. )
You do not have to thank me. ( it's nothing she deserves, she half says but chokes it back. holds it down. ) I wasn't ready... I— I'll tell you one day to your face not just let you hear secondhand from me yelling it at a demon. I'll actually say it but—
( she finally looks up, she's not sad nor crying but she just looks tired. ) But you saw what happened to Carys. I couldn't protect her even though I loved her. I love Herian and now she might not even remember what love is. I can't lose you, I can't and I'm afraid to say it. I'm afraid this is my curse. I have to be better than that.
( she thinks to comment on herian and she does consider his words but right now? saoirse has to say this now. carefully, she reaches out and takes his hands as her fingers run over the branded ink. everything felt so past her understanding, so out of reach but what she could understand. what she did know. it was easy enough and she leans in, pressing her lips across the brand in a gentle kiss. )
But I'm not afraid of you. A lot of what I saw, I don't think I'll ever fully understand but it doesn't change how I feel about you You're you, Prompto. No one else can take that from you and no one else can ever replace you. I'd never allow it.
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Date: 2018-05-20 01:13 am (UTC)You do not have to thank me. ( it's nothing she deserves, she half says but chokes it back. holds it down. ) I wasn't ready... I— I'll tell you one day to your face not just let you hear secondhand from me yelling it at a demon. I'll actually say it but—
( she finally looks up, she's not sad nor crying but she just looks tired. ) But you saw what happened to Carys. I couldn't protect her even though I loved her. I love Herian and now she might not even remember what love is. I can't lose you, I can't and I'm afraid to say it. I'm afraid this is my curse. I have to be better than that.
( she thinks to comment on herian and she does consider his words but right now? saoirse has to say this now. carefully, she reaches out and takes his hands as her fingers run over the branded ink. everything felt so past her understanding, so out of reach but what she could understand. what she did know. it was easy enough and she leans in, pressing her lips across the brand in a gentle kiss. )
But I'm not afraid of you. A lot of what I saw, I don't think I'll ever fully understand but it doesn't change how I feel about you You're you, Prompto. No one else can take that from you and no one else can ever replace you. I'd never allow it.